"If we are not fully ourselves, truly in the present moment, we miss everything." -Thich Nhat Hanh
Very recently, I spent about a half hour journaling what my perfect home would be like (in response to an awesome exercise about manifesting). I had given myself a house on the beach with a pool, an organic garden, and window seats to lounge on while I read in the sunlight. Deliciousness.
But then I turned away from my document and got back to work. And on my way home, I found myself in a space that's quite familiar. After a long day at a place that feels so very out of my alignment, I finally parked my car and grabbed my lunch bag. Running through my head were angry thoughts like- "I wasted my entire day there and now I only have a few hours before I have to go to bed and start the day over again". And tired thoughts- "My feet hurt. I'm not going to get much done. I just want to rest". But then the saving thought that crosses my mind most nights when I finally get closer to my door is that my little black cat Maya will be sitting there, at the glass door waiting for me. This thought always cheers me up. You have to picture this little being, sitting as politely as she can, looking out the window for her Mom.
The huge shift this thought made in my feeling of well-being was so noticeable that I stopped in my tracks. I looked up at the night sky and found the moon right away. I have seen that same moon so many different times and places. It was there when I was jumping on a trampoline as a 10 year on a summer night in Ohio. It was there salsa dancing with me in Sydney. And it was here again on a night that seemed less special- more disconnected. But was this night less special?
It dawned on me that when I really am in the perfect home I had wrote about earlier that day, that I certainly will have a memory of this time in my life. When I look back, I probably won't think as much about how difficult it was for me to go to work everyday. I probably won't think about my feet hurting either. What I am sure I will remember is Maya waiting for me at the door and how happy it made me feel.
So, I realized that I need to appreciate this now, while it's here. Because it's beautiful. Because I'll miss it if it's ever not a part of my life. Because sometimes the small little things light you up. Because life can be hard and yucky, but it can also be yummy and exciting and comforting. Because after a day of frustration, the universe is giving me a gift of peace and happiness and I don't want to ignore it.
What gifts show up for you when you step into the present?