There is something I have gotten used to avoiding any discussion on. For most of my life there was an elephant in the room I wanted to hide. Something overwhelming and unbearable- my weight. An obsession of mine for as long as I can remember, a problem to be fixed, a part of me that was not good enough. My weakness... the one thing that could take me down.
Nowadays, people comment on how healthy I eat, act shocked and make a comment if they see a frap in my hand (annoying btw) or applaud my half marathon accomplishments, but they don't know where all of that is coming from. They don't know because the bottom line is I hate being vulnerable. I hate letting people into a space that would allow them to hurt or judge me. But in a brave effort, I'm putting it out there.
This brave confession is do to a change in my life I recently made. I've signed up to be a Beachbody coach. What a wonderful challenge to take on I thought to myself- workouts and nutrition are already really important to me, shouldn't I incorportate them into a career somehow? The answer was an obvious "Yes!" and I signed up with enthusiam. But enthusiasm waivered when I realized that they best way to help people would be to let them know I already did all of this work myself.
That's when all the gross stuff came up. I am of course still a work in progress- I am far from perfect. But I did change my life. I have lost over 70 lbs. I am still working to be the absolute best me that I can be.
So here's my first step. My baby step. I'm being vunerable. I'm sharing pictures that somehow survived. I'm letting you know where I've been, and hopefully inspiring you at the same time.
Love and Light,
(and yes, that's me on the left in the black clothes and hat)